The 12 Steps of Staying Addicted

 

1. I developed and maintained a willful blindness to my powerlessness over the drug of my choice, and became willing to deceive myself that I could manage the mess it produced in my life.

2. Came to argue that there is no power beyond myself, and listened to my own drug-induced insanity as the only trustworthy direction for my life.

3. Made a decision to turn my will and my life and everything I love over to the care of the drug of my choice.

4. Made a one-sided and fearful moral inventory of all those wrongs committed against me, and used it to justify my own short-comings.

5. I learned to stubbornly deny the existence of my wrongs to everyone and everything around me, but most especially to myself.

6. I accepted the help of my drug of choice to cherish my defects of character and learn to see them as personal strengths.

7. I asked my drug of choice to hide me from the humiliation of seeing the truth about my behavior.

8. I made a list of all the people who still trusted me and that might enable me to support my addiction, and became willing to use them.

9. I exploited and manipulated these people where possible, with no regard for how it might injure them or others.

10. Continued to be sensitive to the wrongs others had committed against me, and learned to quickly and immediately shift the blame for my parasitic lifestyle to others.

11. Through the fear and agitation of withdrawal, I was driven to seek greater conscience contact with the drug of my choice, desperately searching for ways to obey the dictates of my addiction, and for the power to carry that out.

12. Having developed a complete spiritual bankruptcy in my life as a result of these steps, I tried to initiate others into this lifestyle so I could have someone to exploit, and surrendered to the practice of these self-destructive principles until the bitter end.